For Now

For now I'll hold you in my heart while you belong to another;
For now I'll hug you daily and act like a friend and brother;
For now I'll count the days that go by that I hold in my secret;
For now I'll only tell a few that I know will keep it;
For now I'll find a way to live while I am dead inside;
For now I realize that there is nowhere I can hide;
For now I'll go on through the days, of pain and endless "fun";
You may say it's just a phase, but I choose when it's done.